from one to zen
the moment has arrived
the moment is over
— Zumwalt (1998)
Steel ballerina
Under golden dome
On ornate, jewelled throne
Sur le cou-de-pied pirouette
Arythmically composing frozen, forlorn silhouettes
Upon my irregular recall
Lost opportunities overshadowed by lost capabilities
Lost love obscured by lost loved ones
Left alone for a moment, she sees him getting into the last of the county’s ‘eighty-five Impalas.
He turns the key: ignites, grinds, reverses and is gone from the driveway with questionable hearing, eyesight and purpose.
I ride the road; I hide in the highway; I engage the interstate and soon catch the journey on display:
….. Silver Alert, Gray Chevy Impala, 3AUY86G …..
G is for gone. I am gone. I have always targeted gone. Gone has always targeted me.
She speaks, but so softly. I get the idea. Her words are hers alone — always have been: they never will be mine.
I cry inside, tears wreaking havoc on my kidneys, gall bladder, and parts of the spleen. There are other useful internal parts, but I dare not now look: the eyes and hands are positioned ten, two; the right side desperately stealing towards four.
I wait. I wait in motion. I cannot do otherwise. In a moment is all the truth of a bruised, bubbling, underwater universe: one of many, many of one.
She, or her likeness, somehow, is there, hanging from the mirror.
It’s just a symbol:
An item with mass,
An item of meaning,
And, now, an item of mobility.
— zumwalt (2015)
Cousteau and Darwin Move to Suburbia
Like pilot fish
Affixed, transfixed
Upon the gluttonous chin
Of the maneater,
We give thanks and
Humbly suck the detritus
From Fate’s
Serrated mandibles.
The irony of Sophocles
Is just the symbiosis
Of little fish
And unevolved vertebrates
Scrubbing their gills
With polluted waters,
Lacking the initiative
To crawl up the bank, and breathe.
— Zumwalt (1981)